2 months old

So Benjamin is now 2 months old..actually 2 months and one week. I can't believe it. Time has gone by so quickly, he is getting so big and his personality is really shining through. It is a weird feeling though...time is going by fast, but I also cannot remember life without Ben. It is a weird feeling not being able to remember what my life used to consist of. My life now is so much more fulfilling and meaningful, I am now much more important and feel like my life has purpose. Life now just seems to be perfect. Well...maybe not perfect, but pretty close to it. Once Derek went back to work I got into a pretty bad funk. I was really lonely at night and I think I may have been dealing with a little bit of depression. It is hard being alone at night. At night is when it feels like it should be family time, so when I am by myself it just kind of stinks. But, I have learned to cherish my alone time with Ben and to get out of the house and do things. I take anyone's offer to go out, and I am trying to be as active as possible. I am doing much better and hope to continue to well.
Ben had his 2 month check up. Everything is going great. He is in the 50th-75th% (13lbs.) for weight and 95th-100th%(24 3/4in) for height. He is super tall which is funny because neither Derek or I have super tall families. His circ. is still not healing properly. We have to go back to the urologist in 2 months and I am pretty sure that he will have to get his circ. redone. They gave us some cream to put on, which is helping but not fixing the problem. I am bummed and feel like a horrible mom for making him go through this. I have this horrible fear that something is wrong with his little boyhood, but the doctor assures me that it just didn't heal right. I will be happy when it gets all better. Besides that he is very healthy. His head is a little lopsided because he always turns his head to the right, so we are trying to lay him down so his head goes to the left, but he always rolls it back to the right side...
Ben laughs and smiles like crazy. His laugh is so funny, it cracks me up. If I was better at this blogging stuff I would put a video of him laughing on here because I know it would put a smile on your face. He seems to be a very happy boy which makes me feel like I must be doing something right!
Derek leaves for Boston in 2 weeks. He will be gone for 5 days.(I know Jenna this is nothing compared to your husband who is in France)He is already sad about leaving Ben for that long, yeah he hasn't really mentioned being sad about leaving me, just Ben... but since Ben is part me, I feel like he will miss me too!
Work is going good. I love my kiddos and it is truly the perfect job for me at this point in my life. I am not sure if I will want to make a career of preschool, but I am definitely keeping an open mind.
I am trying to remember to take one day at a time and be thankful for all that I have. We are tight on money right now, so I just try to be happy that I have a wonderful family, a house, food, clothes, etc. Especially since Derek works very hard for all that we have I don't want to always be negative about how much money we have in the back. We are making it and we will make it, and luckily God will always provide for us, he always has in the past!

Feeding the duckies

Last Friday we went to feed the ducks at Woodward Park. It was so much fun and the kids really seemed to enjoy it. Ryan seemed a little nervous at first because the ducks were following him around like crazy! To tell you the truth I was a little scared of them too. I thought one of the ducks might try to eat Benji. Kelsey was hilarious! Instead of feeding the bread to the ducks she fed the bread to herself. Man that girl likes to eat. So adorable! As for Ben, he just stared at them. He seemed quite curious of the duckies. It was a fun day! Oh by the way Woodward Park is $5 to get in. I know that this really isn't that much but didn't it used to be only $1 or something. It is $3 if you have a license that says you live in Fresno, but mine says Clovis... ridiculous! I can't believe that Ben will be 7 weeks old on Tuesday! Time flies by so fast. My mom comes on Tuesday as well. I am very excited to see her and I know she is excited to see Ben (and me!). I am starting work on Wednesday. I don't have kids yet but we will be setting up the classroom and meeting the staff. Should be fun. I am really excited to meet all of my kiddos though! It will be hard to be away from Ben, but it is only for 4 hours a day, so I am hoping it goes by fast. I am also looking forward to going to lunch with Jenna. It will be nice to meet with her since I don't think we have really talked since 8th grade! Fun week ahead of me!!!

Ben's one month appt.

Ben had his one month check up on Tuesday. He now weighs 11 lbs. and is 23 inches long! I can't believe how much he has grown. He is very healthy and very strong according to Dr. B! The only thing is that his circumcision isn't healing right, so we have to keep an eye on that. He will have to go to the urologist just to make sure it will correct itself on its own, if not he may have to get it fixed...poor little pumpkin! I feel bad, and pray the it just fixes itself.
He cannot fit into any of his "newborn" clothes, so we are already having to put him in 0-3 month stuff. His newborn diapers are getting a bit small, which is good because we only have one more small package of those left anyways! It is amazing to me how fast they grow. He doesn't even look like the little boy we brought home from the hospital. He is starting to smile more now, his smile is absolutely adorable and it lights up any room.
I have given him a bottle a couple of times (with breast milk) just to make sure that when I go to work he eats well. He took to the bottle right away. It takes him a little longer to latch on to the bottle, but once he does he gulps it right down. I am excited to go back to work, but I am also sad that I will not have my morning with Ben anymore. I am so thankful that I got this job though. I will only be gone 4 hours a day, so I think it will work out really well. Plus I know Derek is excited to have one on one time with Benji.
I am trying to start scrapbooking now so that I do not fall so far behind that I never do it! I have started by ordering all of the pictures I want (at least for now) and I have bought the scrapbook and materials. Now, I just need to get started. I love doing it, but I hate the mess it leaves. I am deciding where the best place would be where I could just leave it all out. The problem is that it gets so cluttered and messy looking that it bothers us...I really want to buy a card table so I could use it in out den. Maybe I will have to invest in one. I know it would come in handy!
Tomorrow we are leaving Ben with Derek's mom while we go to dinner for our 5 year anniversary. We are going to miss Ben a lot, but we know it will be good for the two of us to go out and celebrate. We are going to go to Yosemite Ranch, which is one of my favorite places to eat. Once dinner is over we will go pick Ben up and have a movie night. I am looking forward to a wonderful eveneing with my husband!

One month old...

I can't believe that in two days Benjamin will be one month old. It is gone by so fast and my love for him grows more and more each day. I can't believe how much he has changed in the past four weeks. He already is bigger and looks so different, getting more adorable by the second!! He is doing great and is so precious. Mommy and daddy are doing great too. Derek is back at work, which has been a little hard for both of us, but when he gets home at 2:30 am Benjamin is awake to eat so that has turned into a really special family time and I look forward to those late nights! Ben is doing great with sleeping in his crib. He doesn't cry at all, I know he is awake just because he is making noise so I go and get him and feed him then put him right back down and he falls right asleep! I hope that this sleeping pattern lasts becuase it has been really nice not having to put him down and let him cry himself to sleep. Ben is eating really well. He chuggs for about 20 minutes and then is in a milk coma. It is pretty hilarious. You can here him chugging from across the room! He poops a lot, after every feeding, which means about 8 times a day! We go for his one month check up on Agust 3rd, so we will keep everyone updated on that!

Oh, and August 7th is our 5 year wedding anniversary! Derek is an amazing husband and a loving father and I could not have asked God for a better man for me, he is wonderful!!!

Benjamin Davis Scott

On June 30th Benjamin Davis Scott was born. I went in on Monday the 29th to the doctor, he sent me to St. Agnes to get an NST test done and an ultrasound to check the fluid levels. While at the ultrasound appointment the technician said that she is predicting Ben to be 9 lbs. 15 oz.!!! Derek and I just laughed and when we talked to our doctor he said, "no way he is that big" So we put that behind us, but we did find out that my fluid levels were low, so Dr. B decided to induce me. I went home and got my bag packed and had dinner, and we went back to the hospital around 8:30pm. I had to get anitbiotics so they did that and gave me a sleeping pill. Dr. B. was going to be in in the morning to break my water, he came around 6am and I hadn't had any conrtactions throughout the night, so instead of just breaking my water, he started me on pitocin and said he would be back in the afternoon to break my water. Around 1pm my water broke on its own, and my contractions hit pretty hard! They hurt, so I asked for pain meds. by the time the pain meds got there, about 45 mins. later, I was ready for my epidural. I had the epidural about 10 mins. later and after that I felt great!! No pain, I was still able to feel everything and move my legs, but absolutely no pain. I was able to sleep and truly enjoy the fact that I was in labor. Around 8:30pm or a little earlier I felt the need to push, they called the doctor, he got there around 8:45 pm I pushed for a half hour, and after a FULL episotomy (snip, snip, snip, tear) Bejamin was in my arms. The whole expereince, minus the 45 minutes of pain right after my water broke, was wonderful. However, I can't imagine doing it without an epidural. With the epidural I was able to truly enjoy the birth experince of my son. Now, Benjamin did not weigh 9 lbs. 15 oz. but he did weigh 9lbs. even!!! Which would explain the full episiotomy! He was 21 in. in length, and he is absolutely gorgeous! He is now 2 1/2 weeks old and we are loving our little man. We have already taken him to the Big Trees and the beach house. The more I get out the better I feel. The first few days I was pretty sore from the stitches, but after that they really haven't been too painful. I am feeling great, I am missing being pregnant a little though... but I am so happy to be able to hold Ben in my arms and to be able to see Derek with Ben. He has already proven himself to be an exceptional father. All in All Ben is perfect and life right now is pretty much amazing!!!

39 weeks

So, my ultra sound due date has come on gone... I am really hoping that this week is the week. I am miserable and tired, but I can't sleep. I am having contractions, but nothing that are regular for extended periods of time. At my doctor's appt. last week I was only a fingertip dilated and 70% effaced. I have another appt. tomorrow and I am really hoping that I have made some progress. Today I am very crampy and it feels like I am going to start my period..so who knows maybe that is a sign. My sister tooks pictures of us at Woodward Parka and they turned out great. I can't believe how big my belly is, it's crazy. I finally have stretch marks, but only on the right side beacuse that is the side that Ben is always on... They are not too bad and I am hoping that they fade away after my belly goes back to a normal size. Pray that this week is the week!
Oh, and I got a job teaching preschool for CUSD. It is perfect becsue it is only part time and I am home before Derek has to leave for work so we will not need to find childcare. Such a blessing. I get to teach, and get to stay home with Benji, it is truly perfect!!!

38 weeks

So, I am always thinking "it could be any time" but I know in the back of my head that I still have 3 or so more weeks. I am disappointed and feel like Benji will never be here. I will be done working in 3 days (FINALLY!!!) and then my mom will be here on the 17th, so hopefully that will make time go by faster. I know everyone who is or was pregnant has felt the same way I do, so I am trying not to complain. My friend Jenna had her beautiful baby boy, Jax, last week after like 30 HOURS of labor....which has made me start to freak out a little about all of that. I know everything will be okay and I am counting on everyone's prayers to get me through it all.